Ugh.... I hate that I am falling back into old habits and obsessions. Ashley is finally becoming part of my life again and all of sudden I start becoming obsessed and stalkerish again. Damn it, I need to not let shit happen like it did. I just get these insane ideas and scenarios in my head that make so much sense.... until they fall apart. I go through the idea and support each section in my mind with justifications and logic, but then as soon as reality hit's it falls apart.
Why can't I just trust her and let life happen?
Why can't I just trust her and let life happen?