starkofdoom

Yay, I am now registered for spring semester:

Psych 101 - Intro to Psychology - This one is gonna be cake
Philosophy 201 - History of Ancient Philosophy - This is my fun class... yeah.... I am a nerd.
English 102 - First Year Comp - This is gonna be a LOT of work.

Life is good, yay

So it has been awhile since I have updated... not that anyone will probably read this, but it is kinda nice to be able to write whats on my mind and what has been going on.

First, life in general. School is almost over, it was a pretty bad semester for me, dropped two classes, and not sure how good I am doing in the...
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Bleh, progress is awesome, but not having certain pleasures in life such as another person that cares about you or the option to have a physical relationship with someone... It makes it wonder if it's even worth trying to make my life better.

Life is going ok. Doesn't seem like it should be, but it is. My best friend... I guess that title doesn't apply anymore really, ashley will not respond to me at all. Don't know why, at this point don't care. If she wants me in her life it's gonna have to be her choice. I still love her and want nothing but good for her,...
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My college has a Study Abroad program that would let me go to Ireland for a month and take a couple classes.... I have always wanted to go to Ireland.... but it's about 6k for tuition+food+program fees, and then add in Car Payment, Insurance, Phone and credit cards and thats about another $1000, so if I wanted to do this I would have to spend...
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Yesterday was interesting, I guess thats the best way to put it. It was my B-day, so I am now 24, hehe which has depressing implications in and of it self. Anyways I got into a tiff with my best friend. I asked her to do something that was important and she completely forgot what it was. Now the thing is is we are both...
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Bleh... what a shitty birthday.

I don't know what I am doing anymore. I am depressed all the time, I go back and forth between wanting to have sex with my best friend and just wanting to be friends with her. I can't settle into a real work out schedule and my dedication to school is so off and on it's ridiculous. I don't know how to get in control...
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If I can't find someway to make shit better... I don't know if I can keep going.

It hit me hard tonight how hard the next 5 years are going to be. I am gonna be juggling a 40 hour a week job that I still don't have down 100% and working my ass off every semester to get the grades to get into ASU and once I am in ASU I need to work my ass off to get into their...
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School starts tommorow! Yay! Hehe for someone who is almost 24 and is about to start his second semester at Community college I am surprisingly happy. It's awesome to just be making progress again. Hopefully I can keep it up by creating a social life!

No one cares. I don't have a single meaningful relationship left in my life.