starkofdoom

So, I have been away for a long time and the major reason I am back is because someone gifted my account. I have a feeling it is a marketing tool, but whatever. I like this place and the people are interesting.

So what has happened in my life. Well lets see here, I have gotten a promotion at work. I have gotten into Buddhism...
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Ugh... Shit is rough right now. License is suspended, got pulled over the day it got suspended and it got it taken away. I had no money to deal with it because I just cleared my bank account paying for school and books. So now I am driving to school and work everyday and if I get pulled over I go to jail and my...
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Fuck I can't get to sleep.

Drunken Musings

Music is so amazing. It just makes you think about everything and how important life is. Listening to classics and the great music that has been made in the past makes you think maybe you missed out and makes you wonder if we really are just declining as far as the arts and reasoning goes though.

This site is awesome and the women...
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So yeah... today is pretty terrible. Ugh... fuck it.

Say Anything show on Friday. I WILL FIND A WAY AND PEOPLE TO GO WITH!

Fuck I am dumb. I am finally doing this right and I keep taking steps backwards because I say something fucking dumb. DAMN IT.

So... I have spent the last month or so in a constant state of anxiety. All of this is because my best friend came back from Virginia. Well it's my best friend with which I fell madly in love with 4 years ago. I made some terrible choices back then because of it. Anyways she came back because her heart got broken by the guy...
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I have not been depressed in a real way for the past.... I don't know 6 months? I have been happy and have been able to live my life without falling apart. I feel like that is starting to slip away right now. I don't know what to do......

FUCCCCKKKKKK, I hate it when something happens in my personal life that destroys any chance I have of doing anything at work. I just lose it and can't focus on shit.

Damn it, life really sucks sometimes.

It is my birthday... yay? I actually hate my birthday, I like the days that follow it where I hang out with my friends and go out to celebrate. However on the actual day I am always working or doing something that is not fun. I also always end up looking back at the year and thinking about all the bad stuff that happens which...
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