i am tired.
tired of school. tired of work. tired of existing. it seems at this point that all i have the energy to do is to breath. and that makes me annoyed with myself.
what is it that makes me feel this way? too much drug use way back when?
genetics? nurture?
fuck it. who really knows. what i do know is that im so close to just saying fuck it all and moving away. forget that im going to graduate in one more semester. forget that i have a nice house and some cool friends here, and just go.
im over this place and my life here. but what makes me think that leaving is going to change my life oh so much.
what happens after here? after i stop typing and go lay back down next to the most beautiful woman in the world. will my mind stop pestering me. will i be able to sleep and wake up and find myself motivated to go back to school, back to work. back to the hum drum daily ritual of everything.
tired of school. tired of work. tired of existing. it seems at this point that all i have the energy to do is to breath. and that makes me annoyed with myself.
what is it that makes me feel this way? too much drug use way back when?
genetics? nurture?
fuck it. who really knows. what i do know is that im so close to just saying fuck it all and moving away. forget that im going to graduate in one more semester. forget that i have a nice house and some cool friends here, and just go.
im over this place and my life here. but what makes me think that leaving is going to change my life oh so much.
what happens after here? after i stop typing and go lay back down next to the most beautiful woman in the world. will my mind stop pestering me. will i be able to sleep and wake up and find myself motivated to go back to school, back to work. back to the hum drum daily ritual of everything.
In the mean time, look outside. Take your homework and hit the damn beach! Maybe you're just have a string of continuous poopy days. I'll buy you an ice cream, but can I borrow $5 'til Tuesday? jk. I hope you're feeling better soon. I still feel like shit, and now Trina is getting sick too.
Maybe it'll help if I take you to Crackers and get you all liquored up!! Yeah, I'll give you a call later.