starkie

I would like to start this post out with a thank you to Tigerlilly. Here journal entry from 2 days ago was, in my opinion, very valuable and insightful. She put into words what I had been feeling for quite some time. I will say that 30's have been the most fruitful and the best time of my life thus far, but there are definitely some emotions that come up as you walk down this trail. I have a wonderful career and I can't imagine doing anything else with my life,, but every once in a while I look back and wonder what I might be missing out on. My lifestyle is rather complicated, as I tour the country at least 45 weeks a year. That puts a serious strain on relationships, so much so that I haven't been able to make one last more than a year. Am I giving up love for the life that I have chosen? Maybe that right girl hasn't come along yet. Maybe the right girl has already come around and just got sick of the life that I have chosen. My life is incredibly full and exciting, every day is a new adventure and I have the opportunity to experience things that most don't. I know that every decision we make has a positive and a negative reaction on our lives, but I can't help but wonder how my life, or even myself as a person, would be different if I had chosen the path more often taken and said no to that first tour so many years ago.

With all of that nonsense said, guess when you lose the gift of introspection and reflection, you might as well be done on this plane. I do love my life, I do love my friends, I do love my family, I do love who I have grown into over the years, I love the prospect of the coming years. What, oh what, will it bring.

For those of you who will suffer through that dialogue, I appreciate it. Those who didn't, just look at the pretty pictures.

Compliments of m buddy Dave @ New Tribe Tattoo in Toronto. He opened up his shop on Thanksgiving day just to do this for me. He will never know how much I appreciate it. That was 8 straight hours of tattooing! And I love it.










My love and best to you all.

S-