my bling-bling pics are up - so are some new photos of me that i took tonight since i was supposed to go out but got ditched instead - there better be a good explanation tomorrow at work 
so i amused myself by taking pictures - only two turned out decent - they're in StarGirl's Phots and my bling-bling is under private photos or soemthing along those lines if you want to see it.
i did my makeup really cute too, and there's no one to see it. i used lots of MAC pigment wet then used dry eyeshadow over it and fluidliner - went all out - then no one calls me. story of my life. whatever. at least i'm not crying anymore, which i was earlier and for no feasible reason. so i had to leave work ealry. i hope i'm not going to lose my apprenticeship because of being bipolar. being bipolar ruins everything. some people think it's not real, but until you've lived it, you just can't comprehend its stark realities.
i need to have someone take some pics of me soon because my hair is so much different now than it is in my picture - profile picture. plus my face is thinner considerably, i think. maybe i'll get prettied up tomorrow and have brian do that - he's good at taking pictures.
i've been seasalt soaking my conch cause it's still not healed and it's been almost a year - but once it heals i'm getting my nipples done by justin and talked to my teacher/ mentor about getting a temporary corset done. he seemed semi-interested but i really do want to do that within the next 6-9 months - i think it would be really cool. anyway, i'm pretty boring. nothing to look forward to excpet my tattoo appointment (12 days!) and hopefully getting a job. and seeing my bf of course. but i feel like such a loser at work, at the shop, like i'm really just an outsider looking in. it's probably all in my head 'cause mostly everyone is real nice but that's how i've felt my whole entire life. like i'm on the outside looking in on everyone else. sigh. there are worse things in life though. a lot worse. i shouldn't whine. but thanks for listening.
so i amused myself by taking pictures - only two turned out decent - they're in StarGirl's Phots and my bling-bling is under private photos or soemthing along those lines if you want to see it.
i did my makeup really cute too, and there's no one to see it. i used lots of MAC pigment wet then used dry eyeshadow over it and fluidliner - went all out - then no one calls me. story of my life. whatever. at least i'm not crying anymore, which i was earlier and for no feasible reason. so i had to leave work ealry. i hope i'm not going to lose my apprenticeship because of being bipolar. being bipolar ruins everything. some people think it's not real, but until you've lived it, you just can't comprehend its stark realities.
i need to have someone take some pics of me soon because my hair is so much different now than it is in my picture - profile picture. plus my face is thinner considerably, i think. maybe i'll get prettied up tomorrow and have brian do that - he's good at taking pictures.
i've been seasalt soaking my conch cause it's still not healed and it's been almost a year - but once it heals i'm getting my nipples done by justin and talked to my teacher/ mentor about getting a temporary corset done. he seemed semi-interested but i really do want to do that within the next 6-9 months - i think it would be really cool. anyway, i'm pretty boring. nothing to look forward to excpet my tattoo appointment (12 days!) and hopefully getting a job. and seeing my bf of course. but i feel like such a loser at work, at the shop, like i'm really just an outsider looking in. it's probably all in my head 'cause mostly everyone is real nice but that's how i've felt my whole entire life. like i'm on the outside looking in on everyone else. sigh. there are worse things in life though. a lot worse. i shouldn't whine. but thanks for listening.
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Next piercing you get, we'll do a healing right then and there; any excuse to get back to and hang out in KC. Had a great time there recently; wish I knew you then. Next time...
No wonder you're still healing; I was aiming too low... will get right on that.
We'll definitely hang out when I roll back through there... you ever on the East Coast? How about New Orleans? I will be working there in August.
(Edited for really bad spelling... jeez
[Edited on Jun 05, 2005 10:52PM]