stare

ok ok i called him. my curiosity got the best of me and i couldnt resist. i didnt know what to expect. the whole conversation seemed labored like a first date. its hard to believe that some years ago, this was the person at the center of it all. we used to stay up night after night talking to each other about everything. the best of friends but the WORST couple. and yes i take all the blame. but now its different. i dont know what to say, and id rather not, becuase i just wouldnt be talking to the same person. he said he wanted to stay a friend to me but it seemed like one of those staements that people make knowing theyll never call again. id like to think that if anything i had one more friend in the world but then again im not sure if well ever get passed what happened between us. there was really something there and now its not. how do get over that?