Not sleeping worth crap lately. Part of it's my bizarre hours at work. Part of it's stress. Part of it's the fact that I've been trying not to depend so much on my sleeping pills, and let my prescription run out. Now I'm kicking myself for that last one. I'm beginning to get concerned, because the last time my insomnia was this bad, it was due to severe depression. I'm getting my antidepressant and sleeping pill refilled today, I'm really hoping this helps.
I applied for another position at work. Didn't get this one, but I will be the first in line for the next opening. Hoping to God I get a change soon. I'm burnt out at my current work place. Tired of the bullshit. Tired of the favoritism. Tired of still being on a shift I hate 2 years after going to my boss, telling her I was burned out on the night shift, and getting stonewalled. It was a clever stonewalling, too. Telling me the only way for me to get onto the shift I wanted was to drop down to part-time and lose my full-time benefits. Not having full health insurance coverage was not an option for me- and still isn't. Don't know how much longer I can take it without losing my cool. I'm rapidly ceasing to care what I say or how it's taken- and that can really screw up your prospects sometimes. The kicker is- this is an awesome company with incredible benefits- especially for a privately owned, tri-state convenience store chain. I don't want problems at a store level to make me do something drastic and leave an otherwise amazing company where I would be well set up for a rather cushy, and probably early, retirement.
Hubby says he just wants to see me happy, and he hates what this job does to me. I do too. Prayers and positive energy would be much appreciated.
I applied for another position at work. Didn't get this one, but I will be the first in line for the next opening. Hoping to God I get a change soon. I'm burnt out at my current work place. Tired of the bullshit. Tired of the favoritism. Tired of still being on a shift I hate 2 years after going to my boss, telling her I was burned out on the night shift, and getting stonewalled. It was a clever stonewalling, too. Telling me the only way for me to get onto the shift I wanted was to drop down to part-time and lose my full-time benefits. Not having full health insurance coverage was not an option for me- and still isn't. Don't know how much longer I can take it without losing my cool. I'm rapidly ceasing to care what I say or how it's taken- and that can really screw up your prospects sometimes. The kicker is- this is an awesome company with incredible benefits- especially for a privately owned, tri-state convenience store chain. I don't want problems at a store level to make me do something drastic and leave an otherwise amazing company where I would be well set up for a rather cushy, and probably early, retirement.
Hubby says he just wants to see me happy, and he hates what this job does to me. I do too. Prayers and positive energy would be much appreciated.
And it really sucks that you're still having to work your horrible shift. You'd think they'd want to keep someone whose been with them for so long. Maybe it's just that the person responsible figures you can't afford to quit, and knowing how hard it would be to replace someone on your shift, takes advantage of you.