Eight years ago, I sent in photos only to have a quick "no thank you" email appear in my inbox.
As the perpetual chubby girl I was not surprised, and set aside the idea of ever becoming an SG.
When I turned 30 I decided to give it another chance. I've seen beautiful, thick SG's and figured that I had nothing to lose (other than add another notch to my pity belt). I sent in just a few shots again to SG. Within hours, an email appeared in my box. Since it was such a quick response I knew it would be another "thanks, but no thanks" email. So, imagine my shock when this message said that I was "perfect" and to fill out paperwork!
Perhaps it's my need for acceptance and/or my fear of being old that led me to go into spidermonkey mode when I finally got that email from Suicide Girls.
Unfortunately, I was at work at the time and jumping through my asshole with excitement. So I didn't take the incredibly necessary time to read through all of the FAQ's. I just wanted to get my paperwork in before they changed their mind. I filled out the papers, scanned, and submitted them; as well as the photos that I had submitted earlier.
Only later, when my pulse slowed and I made it home, did I realize what a huge dipshit I am and that I couldn't resubmit more (much better) photos that would be considered a set.
So now I wait, somewhat patiently, for my original photos to be rejected and hope that I get a chance to submit my actual set. In the meantime, I anxiously wish to be "Hopeful" and to be accepted.
I'm still old, chubby, and perhaps not "alternative" enough. However, this has been my dream for many years and to be able to prove to myself and those like me that beauty is a sliding scale, would be one thing I'd love to leave behind for prosperity.
As the perpetual chubby girl I was not surprised, and set aside the idea of ever becoming an SG.
When I turned 30 I decided to give it another chance. I've seen beautiful, thick SG's and figured that I had nothing to lose (other than add another notch to my pity belt). I sent in just a few shots again to SG. Within hours, an email appeared in my box. Since it was such a quick response I knew it would be another "thanks, but no thanks" email. So, imagine my shock when this message said that I was "perfect" and to fill out paperwork!
Perhaps it's my need for acceptance and/or my fear of being old that led me to go into spidermonkey mode when I finally got that email from Suicide Girls.
Unfortunately, I was at work at the time and jumping through my asshole with excitement. So I didn't take the incredibly necessary time to read through all of the FAQ's. I just wanted to get my paperwork in before they changed their mind. I filled out the papers, scanned, and submitted them; as well as the photos that I had submitted earlier.
Only later, when my pulse slowed and I made it home, did I realize what a huge dipshit I am and that I couldn't resubmit more (much better) photos that would be considered a set.
So now I wait, somewhat patiently, for my original photos to be rejected and hope that I get a chance to submit my actual set. In the meantime, I anxiously wish to be "Hopeful" and to be accepted.
I'm still old, chubby, and perhaps not "alternative" enough. However, this has been my dream for many years and to be able to prove to myself and those like me that beauty is a sliding scale, would be one thing I'd love to leave behind for prosperity.
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Nothing wrong with a hot chubby old woman, I say! (man, I DO know how to phrase a compliment....)