I doubt anyone really reads what I have to say but for those who’d like to know...
I haven’t been putting a lot of focus on SG honestly for the past year. I gained so much weight and lost so much confidence y’all are used to seeing me have. The sets that are debuting now, (which I appreciate & love every comment that y’all put), I HATE how I look. (Also why I haven’t been promoting them).
I just can’t believe I let myself get that way. And TO ME it shows in my expressions. If you don’t see it, that means I hide it well. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE my multi with @adadglgmut , and @sperohh did a great job with the sets. But to sit here and be like I “100% love them,” I’d be lying to myself.
The photographer, set, themes, co model(s) PERFECT! Me? Nope. It’s so bad I even had a thought, for a split second, that if I wasn’t in the multi with @adadglgmut , she’d be PINK.
Let’s face it, until I lose half the weight in these sets I don’t see myself moving forward with SG. (THIS IS NO MEANS ME BODY SHAMING ANYONE! please understand that!! It’s how I feel towards myself) It’s so much effort to put in, all while I’m trying to open my own business, and build my community on Twitch. SG just isn’t my focus.
So I have made the decision to pause my SG journey, and maybe to come back sometime in 2019. I wanna focus on myself physically so I don’t leave for good. I like being here. Some of you even support me on twitch! Like, you like me enough to support me. THANK YOU! ❤️❤️😓😢. Without you idk if I’d have the courage. I like seeing my friends I’ve made over these couple of years turn PINK! I’m so proud of each of them! Their journeys & stories are so inspiring, & they show support to me as well. I’d like them to be proud of me too.
I’m gonna transform myself. I’ve made the commitment, plans, etc. it’ll be done.
Anyway, this is WAAAYYYY longer than I intended it to be. If you have read this entire entry, wow! THANK YOU, AGAIN! From the bottom of my heart ❤️
Thanks again for all the love on my recent sets. There is 1 MORE coming out in 3 weeks! “Vintage Candle” also shot by @sperohh. I hope you show it the same amount if not more love ❤️
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I’m here 4 days a week, having fun playing games & enjoying life with my Monster Gang. Come join us.
See y’all in 2019!
Happy Holidays & Happy New Year 🎊🎆
