spyder_doll

hmm man this is a hard one. It coudl be 2 things 1. your afraid of comitment and the scared by the fact u may be "in love" so you try to think up reason why this maynot be working and scared of getting hurt. So subconciously out of fear and protecting yourself you are pushing him away and 2. it may also be a guilt thing for not speeking with him about that thing we had talked about when I was up there. So sub conciously you are pushing him away out of frustration because it is esentually him that is causing u to feel to feel bad. man thats a tough one but to tell uthe truth me and ryan actually went through a simmular thing before we had gotton married because i was all sorts messed up and afraid and paranoid as to how i felt and the fact i couldnt understand why someone so wonderful would want to be with me so i would try to push him away to save him from me. I may be way way off cause hey im not a pyscologist but i have been that phyco gf myself