--wednesday-
- yesterday after work i hung out with my friend brooke for awhile at her work, and she thought i looked nice in my work clothes (long sleeve shirt and trousers) and said usually i'm," dressed like a tropical gangster."
Haha
- work sucks. it's all bullshit, nobody listens to me... even though they ask me questions all day. it's a pain.
saw this online this morning, kevin smith mentions it in his myspace blog, and it sucks
- so i came home, watched like 2 minutes of tv, then napped and listened to cd's for 6 hours. it made me feel better
- i've been having a discussion at work with a couple guys about the difference between wanting to have money, and not caring to make money. cause i don't care to hang out and get paid for nothing at the cart, so if i've done all my work for the day (or done the major stuff and am (mentally more than physically) tired to do any of the pointless crap i could do) i just sign out and go home. if i'm doing something pointless i don't care to do it, and i don't care to get paid for nothing, and i really don't feel i'm getting paid enough to give a crap about the job i do there, so i do the essential stuff and fuck the rest.
i really need to get a different job.
- oh, and i figured out why i haven't been able to post so easily: remember that little heart thing i used to have at the end of my posts? well, for the last couple months it would never show up (it would be like an e and a yen sign or something) and it suddenly hit me, "it doesn't show it, so maybe it messes up the posting software." so i took it off, and BAM! posts go up whenever i want.
- yeah with the holidays, and the new yeear coming, i've been thinking about what a crap place i feel i am at in life right now. i'll be 30 in a couple more months, and i'm not much farther along in life than i was 10 years ago. i'm actually less. and it sucks, and i just need to find it in myself to climb up and out and get on with living. it's hard though. it's easier to say fuck it, and disregard caring for awhile than to buckle down and do the hard work and getting on with it.
- stayed up until 5am, reading random things on wikipedia, watching willie wonka and the chocolate factory, and just zooming around the internet...
Redux (Latin for "brought back")
-thursday-
- so i layed down about 530, but didn't fall asleep until around 7ish, then someone called my cell looking for some old lady, around 9, and i couldn't fall back asleep for 30 minutes, so i got out of bed... must have been the 2L bottle of mt dew i drank last night that kept me up
- watching mr rogers neighborhood (1715/6? Sharing) and they had an artist, ben gonzalez, on, who uses one piece of paper and then cuts out pieces and fold them to make animals and such. it was cool. mr rogers asked if it is origami, and ben said no, it's goopit-goopit (i don't know how it's spelled exactly, but phonetically it was goop-it goop-it), which he said is filipino for "cut-cut" i love mr rogers. 
- mel c is still the best spice girl
- tomorrow is payday... i'll make a whopping $67.50 for the last week... Yippie
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- yesterday after work i hung out with my friend brooke for awhile at her work, and she thought i looked nice in my work clothes (long sleeve shirt and trousers) and said usually i'm," dressed like a tropical gangster."
Haha
- work sucks. it's all bullshit, nobody listens to me... even though they ask me questions all day. it's a pain.
saw this online this morning, kevin smith mentions it in his myspace blog, and it sucks
- so i came home, watched like 2 minutes of tv, then napped and listened to cd's for 6 hours. it made me feel better
- i've been having a discussion at work with a couple guys about the difference between wanting to have money, and not caring to make money. cause i don't care to hang out and get paid for nothing at the cart, so if i've done all my work for the day (or done the major stuff and am (mentally more than physically) tired to do any of the pointless crap i could do) i just sign out and go home. if i'm doing something pointless i don't care to do it, and i don't care to get paid for nothing, and i really don't feel i'm getting paid enough to give a crap about the job i do there, so i do the essential stuff and fuck the rest.
i really need to get a different job.
- oh, and i figured out why i haven't been able to post so easily: remember that little heart thing i used to have at the end of my posts? well, for the last couple months it would never show up (it would be like an e and a yen sign or something) and it suddenly hit me, "it doesn't show it, so maybe it messes up the posting software." so i took it off, and BAM! posts go up whenever i want.
- yeah with the holidays, and the new yeear coming, i've been thinking about what a crap place i feel i am at in life right now. i'll be 30 in a couple more months, and i'm not much farther along in life than i was 10 years ago. i'm actually less. and it sucks, and i just need to find it in myself to climb up and out and get on with living. it's hard though. it's easier to say fuck it, and disregard caring for awhile than to buckle down and do the hard work and getting on with it.
- stayed up until 5am, reading random things on wikipedia, watching willie wonka and the chocolate factory, and just zooming around the internet...
Redux (Latin for "brought back")
-thursday-
- so i layed down about 530, but didn't fall asleep until around 7ish, then someone called my cell looking for some old lady, around 9, and i couldn't fall back asleep for 30 minutes, so i got out of bed... must have been the 2L bottle of mt dew i drank last night that kept me up
- watching mr rogers neighborhood (1715/6? Sharing) and they had an artist, ben gonzalez, on, who uses one piece of paper and then cuts out pieces and fold them to make animals and such. it was cool. mr rogers asked if it is origami, and ben said no, it's goopit-goopit (i don't know how it's spelled exactly, but phonetically it was goop-it goop-it), which he said is filipino for "cut-cut"
i love mr rogers.
- mel c is still the best spice girl
- tomorrow is payday... i'll make a whopping $67.50 for the last week... Yippie
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All I know is that I want to somehow work with/help animals or people...but I am not sure how I am gonna do that, since I dont have much education.