Thursday Dec 22, 2005

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god damnit i finally make some awesome friends in ohio and i have to leave for Ga tommorow... frown
well atleast i found my other evil kitty earring lol. i dunno how it fell out.
i'll have to drive clear to Mt. Gilead to get it, but atleast its been found biggrin biggrin
well i guess i could say that i prolly could shit my pants about now cause i'm moving tommorow and my outlawtanker should be home soon after. YAY!!! i can't wait.
i just hope everything works out between us. it seems like all of our problems are rooted in me and i don't wanna have to take meds for the rest of my life just to be happy. can a person be happy all the time? is that even real? it seems like everyone wants me to be happy all the time so they can vent on me or entertain them, but as soon as i show a little sadness or anger or even just some disappointment then everyone is like woah what's your problem? did you forget your meds?
oh how i love that thrown in my face. i try to help myself heal and still no matter what i do its not enough. if i could be happy and fun and crazy all the time i would, but i don't think i can. i'm just tired of putting up with ppl's shit and letting them walk all over me and only wanna be around me if it benefits them. ...so if you think i'm a bitch i just don't think i care anymore.
i wanna do what i wanna do and how i wanna do it with out feeling bad or like OH NO did i make that person mad or this person is prolly so disappointed in me. i'm done-fuck it!!
WHEW!! ok enough of that nonsense lol.
gotta go pack the truck...yay so fun lol
dekews:
You shouldn't always have to be the stone. Everyone needs to lean now and then. I mean, hell, most of what people do on here is lean on each other. There aren't that many journals where their lives are always going great. That's why most of the people are here. (well, that and boobies) wink
ragefilledmuffin:
No one is happy all the time. Anyone who looks they are is pretending. That being said, some people benefit greatly from meds--my mom could not function in day to day life without them. Other people, such a good friend of mine, only need to take them during stressful/unusual times to help make life easier to cope with. You sound more like my friend than my mom in that respect.
I think "did you forget your meds" is the new "do you have PMS?". wink

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