spookie

another rainy day...
and why do i have to take shit from assholes
why do i let myself get treated so badly for fear of being lonely
why is it so hard for me to say no, fuck off, or i don't want to be here (with you)
why do i feel like i have to please everybody
and if i don't i feel really shitty even tho i know all those fuckers would never be there for me
i can't even go out and party with out feeling bad or being made to feel bad
why can't i trust ANYONE
why do you have to be a backstabbing cunt
why did you have to ruin my life and anything that could possibly ever make me happy in my life time
i hate you
i hate myself
the only thing that gets me through is what we made...