.i.found.her.out.back.sitting.naked.
.looking.up.and.looking.dead.
.a.crumpled.yellow.piece.of.paper.
.seven.nines.and.tens.
.i.thought.shed.be.there.holding.daisies.
.she.always.waits.for.me.
.she.thinks.she.missed.the.train.to.mars.
.shes.out.back.c-o-u-n-t-i-n-g.stars.
being out of school seems too good to be true. i keep 'focusing' on not accomplishing much of anything. trying to keep my days cleared for just laying around the house in my pajamas watching tv and ... gaining weight... heh. im going to start exercising really soon. my sister moved out today and her new apartment has a gym. woo! and a lake... and basically everything. i might just move in the baby's room. heh. speaking of my sister. im so freaking excited. she finds out the gender on monday and im going with her to the appointment. her hospital is so neat. she gets to bring in a recordable dvd and they make a little movie of the sonogram for her. how cool is that? seriously. thats bad ass. that way when she goes to show everyone else her baby it won't be a picture that just looks like a tv with bad reception. i can never figure out sonogram pictures. it looks like a blob to me.
she's going to get the 3D thing done too. i dont know if you all know what that is... i saw it done on one of gina's baby channels a few days ago and its soo neat. basically it shows you exactly what the baby looks like in the womb. like.... lifelike.... its so weird and amazing that they can do that. its really expensive but we're going to get it done close to her birthday and all chip in i think. im getting so excited about this baby. ever since she came home and i saw how big her little belly is getting.
tomorrow i get to pay rent for the first time. yay... heh. i think i might try to pick up a couch this weekend, too. we'll see. i still dont know when im actually going to start living out there. im currently trying to find a day job out in this area. im going to try and work both jobs for a while just for extra cash and then quit H&H. lots and lots of people are having complaints about not seeing me very often and i feel kinda left out sometimes anyway because i always have to work when everyone else wants to play. but really.... things are going very well. steve moved kind of farish away but our relationship has been like... 86.3 times better since then. i say it weirds me out and stuff like that... like im waiting to see what he's plotting... but i dont really mean it. im perfectly content. i feel extremely cared about. i really dont have anything to complain about. who knew. <3
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