spooki

i feel like crap. like, literally - crap. and im trying to focus on homework but its the last thing im thinking of. so somehow math is the only thing i feel like i can even concentrate on. i dont want to read about human geography. i mean really, is there another kind? dont we all live in the same place. basically. maybe thats a stupid statement. im having trouble figuring out if the way i feel is really rational or not. after talking to michael i realized that im not the only fish who feels this way. here lately it seems like the only people who are really there for me are ones i didnt expect. its helpful and frustrating at the same time. at least theres somebody there. im just kind of mad that its not the people who said that they would be. and im feeling extremely... erm... forgotten, avoided, discarded. detached.
nothing is working out the way i want it to.