New Years... I had no plans so was the designated driver for my pregnant sister and my brother-in-law. That after working a nine hour shift. By about 11:30 I wanted to go. Then midnight rolled around, and as I looked around the room I felt even worse. Besides me there were ten other people there and they were five couples. Four were married two were engaged two are about to be engaged and the other two were still in college but dating for quite some time. They all had someone to spend the moment with and I felt more alone than I had in quite a while. Did I mention that I was the designated driver. By about 12:30 my brother-in-law became ill. We were not able to get him to my car until 3:30 or so. Needless to say at that point my sister was not it too great of a mood. That was just about the worst car ride I have ever been in... ever.
I don't hope or want 2006 to be better; I need 2006 to be better. I need to be financially better off then I am now. I need to quit working a 'job' and start working a 'career' Most of all though I need to find some one to love and to love me. I am getting fed up with the string of bad relationships that end even worse than the next one. I have reached this point in my life were, music, my hobbies, and my art are no longer enough to keep me as happy as I need to be to function.
I don't hope or want 2006 to be better; I need 2006 to be better. I need to be financially better off then I am now. I need to quit working a 'job' and start working a 'career' Most of all though I need to find some one to love and to love me. I am getting fed up with the string of bad relationships that end even worse than the next one. I have reached this point in my life were, music, my hobbies, and my art are no longer enough to keep me as happy as I need to be to function.