I've been back in school for just a couple of weeks and I already had my first exam yesterday. It was remarkably easy. My last three art history professors were all challenging so I'm a little disappointed and relieved at this at the same time. 20th century art is not something I'm terribly interested in overall so I am glad to be able to focus on other things, but on the other hand if I have to take the class I want to be able to take more away from it than I think I'm going to here.
Aaron has given me a date on his move out. He's been packing for the last few days and is leaving on Monday. I think I'm in a state of denial still a little bit. I hope he doesn't end up working in his aunt's shop and living in his parent's garage forever. I hate to see him going back to it.
Also, as of today I've been with Cal for 6 years. I said we'd stop celebrating single years after 5 until the wedding, but it still seems like a time to celebrate and maybe to mourn the fact that the wedding planning seems to have died in it's infancy yet again. I hate that fact. I really do want a wedding. I'm not concerned about some big, over-the-top, fairytale wedding because I personally think it would be a nightmare. I do want to put on a beautiful wedding gown, get all dolled up, have a quick ceremony and then spend the afternoon and/or evening with our closest friends and family celebrating the event. At this point I'm really willing to go to a justice of the peace since I would rather regret not having one that regret having one I hated that was planned at the last minute.
Warning: Rant starts here.
This keeps coming back to my mother. The planned wedding date is now less than a year away, but nothing, absolutely nothing is done and she pretty much refuses to even discuss her holding up her end of the wedding plan deal we have because "you have so long to plan it, you might not even want to do this in a year." I've been with him for 6 years and have a better relationship with him than anyone in my life. I don't see me changing my mind on a whim. Not to mention my grandmother's second wedding took 2 and a half years to plan, my mother has admitted she spent about a year and a half planning hers and they were still scrambling at the end because a lot wasn't done. I need to know where and exactly when it's going to be before I start planning around that and the place is the part she's supposed to help with. Now I've ditched every place I've wanted due to her complaints about cost and/or rules. Now that I'm down to the cheapest place I've found that I liked at all and with the fewest rules she's decided that we should just have it in the backyard. I do NOT want a backyard wedding. I've heard plenty of stories of how wonderful they can be, but I don't want to get married outdoors for starters, I don't want to get married anywhere that any of my family or his family feels comfortable enough in thier setting to start shit and I definantly don't want to get married at my house because I know my mother is not above demanding that I help with dishes or something before cake on my wedding day. I hate to not be helpful but of all days I want to spend my wedding day drinking champagne and just feeling happy, not clearing off guests dishes in my wedding dress. You know, I can understand financial issues (though I really don't believe they have any right now, or atleast not what she keeps saying they do. I've got the entire wedding budget down to less than she spends on Christmas decorations most years), but I guess what really tops everything off for me and gets me truely infuriated is when I say we're getting married then and if we can't get wedding plans together by then we are going to the courthouse and will be done with it, she gets absolutely pissed at me. It's like it's a personal stab at her if I not only don't have a wedding, but I don't have the wedding she wants me to have. After talking to her today I don't even want to go visit my family for Easter. I just want to stay home and sleep in because I don't even want to discuss this further. I never understood why some women choose to elope rather than have a wedding until I started planning mine.
Aaron has given me a date on his move out. He's been packing for the last few days and is leaving on Monday. I think I'm in a state of denial still a little bit. I hope he doesn't end up working in his aunt's shop and living in his parent's garage forever. I hate to see him going back to it.
Also, as of today I've been with Cal for 6 years. I said we'd stop celebrating single years after 5 until the wedding, but it still seems like a time to celebrate and maybe to mourn the fact that the wedding planning seems to have died in it's infancy yet again. I hate that fact. I really do want a wedding. I'm not concerned about some big, over-the-top, fairytale wedding because I personally think it would be a nightmare. I do want to put on a beautiful wedding gown, get all dolled up, have a quick ceremony and then spend the afternoon and/or evening with our closest friends and family celebrating the event. At this point I'm really willing to go to a justice of the peace since I would rather regret not having one that regret having one I hated that was planned at the last minute.
Warning: Rant starts here.
This keeps coming back to my mother. The planned wedding date is now less than a year away, but nothing, absolutely nothing is done and she pretty much refuses to even discuss her holding up her end of the wedding plan deal we have because "you have so long to plan it, you might not even want to do this in a year." I've been with him for 6 years and have a better relationship with him than anyone in my life. I don't see me changing my mind on a whim. Not to mention my grandmother's second wedding took 2 and a half years to plan, my mother has admitted she spent about a year and a half planning hers and they were still scrambling at the end because a lot wasn't done. I need to know where and exactly when it's going to be before I start planning around that and the place is the part she's supposed to help with. Now I've ditched every place I've wanted due to her complaints about cost and/or rules. Now that I'm down to the cheapest place I've found that I liked at all and with the fewest rules she's decided that we should just have it in the backyard. I do NOT want a backyard wedding. I've heard plenty of stories of how wonderful they can be, but I don't want to get married outdoors for starters, I don't want to get married anywhere that any of my family or his family feels comfortable enough in thier setting to start shit and I definantly don't want to get married at my house because I know my mother is not above demanding that I help with dishes or something before cake on my wedding day. I hate to not be helpful but of all days I want to spend my wedding day drinking champagne and just feeling happy, not clearing off guests dishes in my wedding dress. You know, I can understand financial issues (though I really don't believe they have any right now, or atleast not what she keeps saying they do. I've got the entire wedding budget down to less than she spends on Christmas decorations most years), but I guess what really tops everything off for me and gets me truely infuriated is when I say we're getting married then and if we can't get wedding plans together by then we are going to the courthouse and will be done with it, she gets absolutely pissed at me. It's like it's a personal stab at her if I not only don't have a wedding, but I don't have the wedding she wants me to have. After talking to her today I don't even want to go visit my family for Easter. I just want to stay home and sleep in because I don't even want to discuss this further. I never understood why some women choose to elope rather than have a wedding until I started planning mine.
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