speare

i am so goddam in love it hurts and i so cannot afford to be in this situation right now. it wasn`t supposed to happen like this. i wasn`t supposed to let her get to me. man i don`t even wanna touch her at all i just want to hold her. i leave for boston in a week and a half. another year there should be good for me. it will keep me away from her. i figure if she is still on my mind come next april maybe this really means something. i have never felt this strongly about a girl. this wasn`t supposed to happen. not her, not now.

my cat is literally letting himself rot to death and there is nothing we can do about it. fuck there is nothing more painful. its 3:30am and i am up because my cat has literally lost his mind and it scares me. i went into the bathroom a couple minutes ago and he is busy running himself into the wall, quite literally. i just can`t fucking believe this. i don`t even know how to react. i`m just horrified.