i've been thinking about my ex ALOT lately. when i first broke with him a couple years ago i didn't feel anything because i was too busy fucking around and fresh to all the pain he caused me. but now, years later, i feel sooooo bad. i hurt him just as much as he hurt me. but anyways, this blog isn't about that, it's about me missing his friendship. he ended up meeting up with me tom and wesley downtown the other night to have a drink and such. It was really good being able to talk and reminisce. Wesley, Will, and I used to be the three musketeers....so to speak. Will is very smart and very funny, we are still very similar and enjoy the same things and humor. I've been think a lot lately about how i wish i could hang out with him again and have real conversations and maybe get some closer on our relationship and all that.
Tom is great, don't get me wrong. I can safely say I love him. I am extremely attracted to him. I have no intentions of fooling around with other dudes. especially not with my ex. but Tom isn't always the sharpest tool in the shed and while he is adorable he doesn't make me laugh like i used to with Will and being in highschool with all my friends. I miss laughing my guts out. and i miss having real, deep, interesting conversations. Its hard to talk to Tom. But i would be able to with Will. I feel like it has been years since i have been able to talk about all that im thinking with someone other than myself (which usually leads to crying) or the internet
So anyways, yesterday morning i was in my car thinking about how much I wanted to talk to Will. and then when i got home I stayed in my car, after i parked it, for like 15 minutes listening to a very interesting story on NPR, and thought about how Will would do this too or even know the story im listening to, where as Tom would be like wtf o_0
THEN out of the blue at like 11:30 last night, Will messages me on facebook. we have a long conversation about what we've been up to, how he's moving in the summer, and that i deserve to be an awesome tattoo artist and he would even let me do something on him. He said it was nice hanging out the other night and we should hang out again, possibly this weekend and go downtown for a drink or something. IT WAS AWESOME!!!! seems we are still on the same page. i am really looking forward to hanging with him.
BUT HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO PULL THIS OFF!? Tom and i are always together on the weekends. bringing him along isn't an option and he wouldn't want to go anyways. but i can't just be like "oh i'm gonna go hang out with my ex now, want me to drive you home?" i really hope tom doesn't flip out and get jealous and say he doesn't like the idea of me and will hanging out. he doesn't much care for will and doesn't mind telling me. which i get, obviously. but even though i had problems with Will a while ago, he is still a good friend whom i really enjoy the company of.
TL;DR much to my overjoyment, my ex also wants to re kindle our friendship and hang out this weekend. I really need his smart and funny conversing. im afraid how my boyfriend will react to this and how i am going to do so.
Tom is great, don't get me wrong. I can safely say I love him. I am extremely attracted to him. I have no intentions of fooling around with other dudes. especially not with my ex. but Tom isn't always the sharpest tool in the shed and while he is adorable he doesn't make me laugh like i used to with Will and being in highschool with all my friends. I miss laughing my guts out. and i miss having real, deep, interesting conversations. Its hard to talk to Tom. But i would be able to with Will. I feel like it has been years since i have been able to talk about all that im thinking with someone other than myself (which usually leads to crying) or the internet
So anyways, yesterday morning i was in my car thinking about how much I wanted to talk to Will. and then when i got home I stayed in my car, after i parked it, for like 15 minutes listening to a very interesting story on NPR, and thought about how Will would do this too or even know the story im listening to, where as Tom would be like wtf o_0
THEN out of the blue at like 11:30 last night, Will messages me on facebook. we have a long conversation about what we've been up to, how he's moving in the summer, and that i deserve to be an awesome tattoo artist and he would even let me do something on him. He said it was nice hanging out the other night and we should hang out again, possibly this weekend and go downtown for a drink or something. IT WAS AWESOME!!!! seems we are still on the same page. i am really looking forward to hanging with him.
BUT HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO PULL THIS OFF!? Tom and i are always together on the weekends. bringing him along isn't an option and he wouldn't want to go anyways. but i can't just be like "oh i'm gonna go hang out with my ex now, want me to drive you home?" i really hope tom doesn't flip out and get jealous and say he doesn't like the idea of me and will hanging out. he doesn't much care for will and doesn't mind telling me. which i get, obviously. but even though i had problems with Will a while ago, he is still a good friend whom i really enjoy the company of.
TL;DR much to my overjoyment, my ex also wants to re kindle our friendship and hang out this weekend. I really need his smart and funny conversing. im afraid how my boyfriend will react to this and how i am going to do so.
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mirima:
Sounds complicated. As long as you don't have lingering feelings for your ex, I'm sure it's ok. Just be careful. And be open and honest with your boyfriend.
littlejohn22:
being open and honest with your partner is the key, just remember what makes you happy and understand that sometimes your happiness might be what makes your partner happy