sparkle

another night in at the apartment, i miss the old days of going to the cafeteria and eating with everyone and just hanging out...now i just sit here and eat at home. it is a little bit lame. though, it can never be like last year again. just with the whole abandoning people at jail (a.k.a: stupid mistake by me) and i dunno, my imposing my unhappiness on others. (which i been trying to work on) but, even if i try, it doesnt seem like its good enough and people dont tell me untill they are so sick of me, to the point of them making fun of/imatating me. it would save a lot of meanness, if they just told me to quit whatever pisses them off su much when i was doing it, but these are the type of people that enjoy being mean, i guess. it's amazing how quickly people turn on you.