spadeshapedheart

so i'm in the bookstore today getting expensive ass books for my new classes and

now this is a chick i had a HUGE ass crush on durring my junior year but i never had the balls to say anything to. we were just friends. but she knew.

so i talked to her on and off after that and after a while we just didn't talk and up till this morning, for about 2 years.

so she is in this book store and i just freeze up! i can't think, my legs turned to jello and i had a swarm of butterflies in my stomach. so any other person, i'd have no problem saying what's up to cuz i'm a people person. but i couldn't do ANYTHING!!!

so instead, i shamefully just kinda acted like i didn't see anything. focused on anything else taking only glances at her when i knew she wasn't looking and she's just every bit as beautiful as she was back in high school.

but still i couldn't do anything. someone shoot me in the god damned face! man i'm so mad at myself!