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The past week has has it's ups and downs for me... Last week I found out that my ex got married about a month ago and is expecting... WOW that was my response along with alot of tears.... I cried not because I am in love with him but because he was able to marry someone in one years time... We were together for 4 years and he could not make that committment to me... He actually told me that he would never marry again... He had been married when we first met and became friends.. we started dating after he was divorced... So I was questioning my self worth last week and why am I not marriage material? I began to question why I was so distraught with the idea of him being married to someone else and expecting a baby soon....

I realized after processing it for days that it's best just to be happy for him and wish him the best... I want good things for myself so I need to wish him good thoughts.. Bsides I realized that he was a douchebag towards me in many many ways and didn't treat me like he should have... I was a mess asking myself why was she WORTHY of him.. I quickly realized he may not treat her grand however her standards may be low so therefore he gets away with being subpar... Besides she is skinny and didn' you know skinny people are more worthy... So he seems to think...

Today I start my 21 day vacation.. WOOOOO.. I am going back to Michigan to spend with family and friends... I am totally stoked.... Does anyone have anything fun or spectacular planned for the holiday next weekend?