spacebob

Getting older is worse than it seems when you are young. The slowing metabolism, the more fragile bits, these are obvious. What perhaps is more subtle is the burden of the mundane and how it increases with age. How free you are when your basic needs are covered by another. More subtle still is the mind. While I can remember a time where I could make sense of things and be surprised by the world, now I believe I am a set of conditioned responses. The original thoughts I sometimes bring up in conversation are from when I was young and cared for, the remainder is a set of actions and responses that I think would go the same way if I was sleep walking or conscious. It is not all bad though, I can eat what I like when I like.