It's been so rough the past few days. I've had to try to pick up myself from being so negative but life just gets so hard. I've been working so hard to find another job, trying so hard to fix things with my family, but things just arent working out for me. Its hard to really pick yourself up.
Not even my videos cheered me up.
I'm terribly lonely. My roommate is never home now because he has a girlfriend now, I don't have many friends here and the ones I do are more focused on partying. I've never felt so depressed in my life. I find myself crying each night because of this. I wish I had someone to laugh with, someone to be happy with I know give it time and I will but the overwhelming loneliness is too much right now since I already have so much on my plate.
I hate falling asleep alone and At times, I hate that I wake up. Im trying guys. Im really trying to keep moving forward. But I'm not moving anywhere.
I need encouragement, I need positive vibes, I need someone to be there for me this time, I need someone to tell me that everything will be okay..I feel so defeated.
Not even my videos cheered me up.
I'm terribly lonely. My roommate is never home now because he has a girlfriend now, I don't have many friends here and the ones I do are more focused on partying. I've never felt so depressed in my life. I find myself crying each night because of this. I wish I had someone to laugh with, someone to be happy with I know give it time and I will but the overwhelming loneliness is too much right now since I already have so much on my plate.
I hate falling asleep alone and At times, I hate that I wake up. Im trying guys. Im really trying to keep moving forward. But I'm not moving anywhere.
I need encouragement, I need positive vibes, I need someone to be there for me this time, I need someone to tell me that everything will be okay..I feel so defeated.
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missthermopylae:
Please cheer up, beautiful lady. Things will get better. Sometimes it takes getting through the dark days like this to see the beauty of the bright ones. <3
hondo_lane:
Remember what Nietzsche said about suffering and art: some of the best ideas (i.e., the clearest, most insightful thinking) come during a time of hardship and sorrow. Try to keep some perspective and you'll make it. Maybe a little more jaded, maybe a little wiser, but you'll come through. And remember, too, that you are loved. Even if you don't hear it every day -- or every week or every month -- you have to remember that. You make the world a better place.