southernloyalty

I always tell myself I'm going to update my journals and blogs more, but I never do. I hope my memory serves me well later in life when I'm trying to think back to the days of my youth.

I'm in what you call a reflective time in my life at the moment. Since the birth of my niece two months ago, it's had me thinking of starting a family as soon as possible. Finding THE girl and getting started. I figured at this point in my life, I'd probably have 2-3 kids to show for right now.



I mean seriously...who wouldn't want like 10 of these? I was always the type of guy who saw himself getting married at 22-23 and getting started on a family soon after with like 6 kids. I was raised with that old fashioned mentality. Now it's a matter of finding someone worth a shit with the same sort of goals that I have.

I've been a more positive person since the beginning of the year. It gets tiring being a negative asshole all the time. I've harbored a lot of hate in my heart for a long time. I can't say it's all gone, but I seen that as a person...I'm improving. Opening my mind a little bit more as fuckin' hippy as that sounds. Who knows where I'll be a couple years from now if I continue on this path. Even with newfound negative drama in my life..I'm still pushing forward in a positive light.

Sleep might serve me right. Get me out of this hippy sort of thinking.