southernbelle

Okay, I'll go ahead and warn you, even those of us that are in good moods almost all the time have some days that are downers....so don't get all freaked out, I promise I'm okay!!!! And I am in a much better mood today!!

I've just been sorta down the last few days....the boy I've been seeing has no idea what he wants as far as a relationship goes, he just pretty much is certain he doesn't want a relationship with me. I'm cool just hanging out with him (especially since he's great in bed), and we've talked about just continuing to hang out like we do, which I am okay with, even knowing that the chance of a relationship coming from it is very slim. It just sucks because I start to think of what is wrong with me.

I really think I have a sign on my forehead (if you look really close in the picture, you can see it) that says "If you aren't sure what you want, come date me." Not counting my last ex (the one I saw last weekend), the last 8 or so guys I've dated have not wanted a relationship, and still went into it with me knowing that I am. The most recent ex wasn't sure if he ever wanted to get married, but was happy being in a committed relationship with me, but he took a job 500 miles away, and I'm not doing the long distance thing again.

I know I have a lot to offer, and I've listed it here before, so I won't again. I know I'm a good girlfriend, I just sometimes wonder if I'm asking too much. I don't ask that much in a relationship, I am actually a very simple person. A phone call/text message/instant messenger conversation most days, hanging out a few times a week, letting me know you care about me in whatever way you want. I am not high maintenance, I just want to be happy. Is it really that much to ask??

Okay, enough of the whining. Other than the above, my weekend was great. Friday night I went to a party with some old friends, and had a great time. There's one guy that I have this weird flirtation with, and he was there, so that always leads to dirty comments, and winks across the room. We were up until about 4:30 Saturday morning!!

Saturday after 4 hours of sleep, I got a new piercing ( vertical hood :eek, got a new shirt, some new pajamas, and a new purse. Add this on top of the new make-up I got on Friday, and I had a very economy helping weekend!!! Hey, I make the money, I can spend it how I want. Then Saturday night, went to a housewarming/birthday party for a girl I play volleyball with. I had never met her friends (except the ones we play ball with) so it was really fun. Some great people there! Met a few guys that were really sweet, one who is going to come to our volleyball game on Thursday, so that should be fun. Up until 3:30 this morning!!

I then slept as much as possible as I could today!! Did not much of anything, put some laundry away, did a little organizing of my office, but was basically lazy as hell!!! Now, I'm off to bed!!

Have a great week everyone!!