soulsetfire

9.49

So the house is officially ours. My only regret is that my Daddy is not around to come see it and celebrate with us.

And now I'm plotting the changes to my house. I am going to paint it to be fantastic. I'm painting my living room to have a cherry tree on one wall, in full bloom with cherry blossoms floating down the...
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12.28

I've thrown off the cloak of pretensions. I am free. With myself and my heart.

I'm in love.

12.00

I've let myself down.

7.40

This evening, I am weaker than I have been in a long time.

It's a good thing god doesn't exist or he would be sorely tempted not to just wipe me off the face of the earth.

10.45

I'm playing hooky today because A. I have an intense migraine B. I still hurt from yesterday.

Because boys and girls, I have good ideas. GREAT ideas.


I kidnapped IronMog and his sisters for a day of shenanigans. We went shopping [I GOT WATCHMEN ON BLU RAY!!!!!!] and then we decided to strike out for adventure. We ended up at the reservoir. At the...
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5.22

I feel as if I cannot do this anymore. I feel as if, like with everything else I touch, it has become a failure.

I don't know how to stop this from happening. I don't know how to make myself feel better about this.

I don't even know if I should. Maybe I should just accept this an just another eventuality.

10.23

What a day. It started out vaguely structured. Breakfast for boy, homework while he watched cartoons and terrorized Jake. I get a call from Sis. We head down to visit Mamaw for her birthday then visit my little Japanese grandma. Came home and me and Bub took an epic nap!

Woke up, went to IronMog's house and went swimming with him and his...
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12.24

So today marked the very first day in thirteen years that I have not smoked a cigarette. I got my Blu Cigs in the mail today and decided to give it a whirl. It's an electronic "cigarette". There's no tobacco, no nicotine, no ashes, no smoke. I tried it on the way to work and decided it was okay. I continued to "smoke" it...
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6.33

My fantastic three-day weekend is drawing to a close. *sadface*

I got to spend Saturday with IronMog and pookieisinlove. They rock my socks off.

Got the fifth trade of Y. Thanks a lot IronMog for yet another series I'm collecting. Butthole.

Next week I'm dying my hair. Again.

Next week, I've also decided that I am going to force myself to do homework...
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2.29

I don't know where it goes from here, but okay, I trust you and I'm just gonna plunk my hand down in yours and go with it.

8.28

I have a new hair project for next week.

It is going to be BEYOND epic.

I'm excited!

11.35

My heart lies there on the table. A scalpel beside it. Walk to it and pick it up. With surgical precision, insert the scalpel into my heart. Make the incision deep, from top to bottom. Peel the sides back and pin them. Grab the magnifying glass for examination.

11.38

A butterfly lights on a crumbling wall. Waves crash against it, taking with it the...
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