sorrowsjoy

Why do I bother?
Because it is my way
Why do I bother?
I never could play the worlds cruel games

So here am now naked and afraid
Walking through shattered glass
Vulnerability dancing across my face
So here I stand eyes betraying my past

Did I disappoint you?
And for the sake of my sanity
Give me a chance I never knew
These words that knock the air from my lungs

To this darkened place I contemplate
This anathema of evrything I thought I could do
I cannot be more than what I am
Always confined to what I can't change

No tears
No sympathy
My soul a silver key
Wrapped in the screams of my fears

An echo of a moment that just burns away
A moth to the flame
A reason to not feel good enough

Disappoint
Disappoint
They yell
Your fault entirely

Just so tired
And it's so quiet here now
Back here in the soils embrace
I think I'll stay here
I don't need to remember
The madness of forever....
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In the face of grave defeat
Are heard cries for mercy
No barrier of self control
No innocent composure
Abusing love and, like a child,
Inflicting pain upon itself
When the calling finally comes
Will there be no one waiting?

In blind despair taken in
By any glimpse of freedom
Sell your soul to buy some time
Infect all your longings
The thought that God has taken sides
On the path to breaking down
Disconnected but not alone
Scream to the tune of the background noise

Endless thoughts of what is wrong
Arrive at no conclusion
On the floor still nursing wounds
No sense of self to speak of
The though that God has taken sides
On the path of breaking down
Disconnected but not alone
Scream to the tune of the background noise

When does enough become enough?
When does "NO" have meaning?