sorrowsjoy

God I can't find the words anymore
They flew from the cuckoo's nest that is my brain
Racing to depart from the cages when I opened the doors
To the madness,sadness,and grief that inevitably came
Crying to be heard,a cacaphony of overwhelming noise

So my words aren't polished nor impart great wisdom
But they are mine, and raw,screaming to be formed
Into recognizable shapes,and perhaps to articulate
The fear I inhale in every breathe
They are not for you to twist and I won't dissemble
This pain is inherent and could you refrain from
The labels and narrow definitions that you chain my life to

I no longer care what others think (well maybe that's an untruth)
I've spent my life with shoeprints running up and down my body
And with a certainty I deny you the pride of thinking you
Have figured me out because I am not so simple
In every breathe and every single action
You cannot know what lies behind the darkness in my eyes
And even in the face of grave defeat I cling to hope the most fragile of things
My beginning and my end



Lexi


Take a look at what you've done
and gaze upon what you've become.
Father help me to bring his end
Then to hell his soul we'll send.

The Devil take you for his needs
while children stab you and make you bleed.
You'll repent for what you've done
for raping my Daughter, raping my Son.

--VNV Nation--"Serial Code"




So afraid
Open your eyes
Know too well
That fatuates you
Something undefined
There in the halflight
The demon without
The demon inside
To play then torment you
Feelings so sure
Feelings so uncertain
Something is wrong
Everyone's gone
You have been left behind
Everyone left the demon inside

Do you still hear the laughter
So hard to describe
And never forget
Faces that haunt you
Wake or sleep
You know you can't tell
Unable to sleep
Unable to fight
Unwilling to wake
To open your eyes
Face your oppressor
Still you go on
Convinced it will end

Can you remember
A day when it was not
Not like this
Unsure of yourself
Unsure of your thoughts
Unable to know
Of what you think is right or wrong
Still you go on
Convinced it will end
But someone pushes
A blade through your mind
There on the edge
No-one will find you
So hearing them laugh
No light it's not the end for you

Why is everything wrong
Here I am
Here I am
With these words
Trying to say
Something I can't
Something I can't tell you
Nothing is wrong
The demons they have left you
You were not left behind
You were not left behind
So open your eyes
So open your eyes
Unable to sleep
Unable to fight
Unwilling to wake
Please open your eyes
Here I stand
Unable to tell you
I'm trying to say
Nothing is wrong
Please open your eyes
Nothing is wrong
You were not left behind


VNV Nation--"Left Behind"