sorrowsjoy

It's now a little past 11:00 now and I've been feeling a little down...Living with seven other people in a four bedroom house is to say the least confining...especially since it is family...Ohhhh boy the dynamics and interelationships would keep a dozen Psychologistd busy if not confounded lmao...Being sick (I have Fibromyalgia,PLMD,Resless Leg Syndrome,other severe sleep disorders,PTSD,General Anxiety disorder,Depression,ect...I think you get the picture lol) is tedious and dealing with the system has been quite illuminating to say the least...The Fibro causes severe pain and overwhelming fatigue but I still can't sleep...I have yet to run down the street naked lol and have kept a measure of my sanity by constantly feeding it with words from my books,music for my ears,and of course my puter to whine and vent to the cyber world...Now I always try to find something positive evry day as to retain that ever elusive thing called hope...it's slippery but I am relentless...Here in Riverside I am helping to establish the first support group for the GLBT community thru the county...the first of it's kind...I am also now a member of the Board of the Department of Mental Health as a client (i.e patient lol)----So this damaged person as my father calls me is finally taking back my life that was stolen so many years ago...it has been a sad and lonely place to be but I'm tenacious and smart and have the goods and potential to help others in my situation...Anyways time to hit the hay and hopefully the Sandman will grace me with his prescence....Nite nite and thank you Paul for your comment and your praise of my poetry...I will be sure to share more.

Lexi FractalTelepathy@aol.com