sorrowsjoy's SuicideGirls Blog

Just a quikie here cuz I'm exhausted--I have been in the hospital since my leaving--Was a particulary bad experience though as always I learn something more about myself out of everything--Well I hope--Anyways I'll type about it later--It will be a long entry to say the least--Love all you guys very very much--Have missed the home and people I have found here........

Alexis

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vacuity:

I hp you feel better now !!

love ya !

Oct 31, 2005

jenya:

you amaze me!!!

Nov 6, 2005

I will give a proper update when things have settled and I have the other puter back--Using my dads puter--Should have seen the look on his face when he saw the addy to this site hahaha

--Awww his little girl is all grown up and likes girls!!--Anyways love all you guys very much and hope to be on here more often soon

Alexis

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satyrius:

Hugs and kisses my sweet

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We must someday have an in depth chat about the world outside normal perception.What do you think? Let me know.Take care.
S.

Oct 16, 2005

telepathboy:

I'll be glad to see you back!!!

Oct 18, 2005

Having finally slept this morning I'm feeling a bit more grounded though the fatigue is always present and I'm still hacking my head off though my lungs are back where their supposed to be lol--And of course I'm always hooked to my earphones listening to Corvus Corax--Ore Dragonis--Music calms my thoughts and keeps me connected to my emotions--I have the rather bad habit of...
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kaleidoscopic:

hi...thanks for the kind words in the group...i was out of town for a funeral. you're so right...

oh and while i'm here...

I ♥ VNV NATION!!! i saw them live in june. it was my graduation present from my bf and a great way to celebrate my thesis being accepted!

i feel your pain on the thoughts struggling <big big big hug> you'll pull through...you're stronger than they are.

Oct 12, 2005

amberxrose:

hope all is ok

Oct 14, 2005

"Empty isn't she?".....Here at the turbulent and bumpy end of trying to sleep I find myself alone in this hotel room-Normally I would enjoy the solitude--I can experience all my messy emotions alone better and since the numbness has all but melted the past week I have been feeling their heavy sighs and inarticulated pains--And now I don't want to be alone--I have been coming...
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shakti:

the comment you left in my journal was unbelievably insightful and compassionate. i am not used to that sort of intimacy with strangers. i read your journal. so sad but your words are fucking beautiful. such a gift.

Oct 4, 2005

jenya:

wanted to give you a bunch of

Oct 4, 2005

Why do I bother?
Because it is my way
Why do I bother?
I never could play the worlds cruel games

So here am now naked and afraid
Walking through shattered glass
Vulnerability dancing across my face
So here I stand eyes betraying my past

Did I disappoint you?
And for the sake of my sanity
Give me a chance I never knew
These words...
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fyrestarter:

I never went to Bandalier. But I did go to your home-town a few times. I really loved Santa Fe, it was just so freaking expensive to live there!!

Sep 29, 2005

x_obscure_x:

I've missed you too

It's been ages since we last talked it feels like.How have you been lately?? I love you and hope to talk to you soon.

Sep 29, 2005

Hurting needless to say...some days defeated..some days hopeful...but always hurting

Please forgive me my mistakes
As I sit here at the bitter end of a thought to fast to late
Where is my foundation and why I do hide the the cuts and weight of every little scar
Tethered to the chains of burning stars

But deep inside there is a soul
Somewhere there must...
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sistervanian:

Thanks! Yeah it's wonderful, the rough time is over and has been replaced by the time that I
consider to be the time of my life. Soon to be spent with the love if my love. He and I decided that all things happen for a reason and were it not for that dark chapter and the time I took to recover from the absolute sickness and disgust of it, we might not have fallen so deeply in love when we did.

Looking forward to the Best Christmas Ever!
Spending it with my sweet down to earth beautiful Gothic Genious Soulmate, (he's moving here permanently to be with me before
the holidaze) Yeee!
Hugs!
Samantha Maria

Sep 26, 2005

sistervanian:

We're both pretty sure that our moment will last a lifetime. Both of us are very much in love. And he's an Aussie guy which makes it all the better. We understand each other on levels that would take epics to to explain. And yeah, we will cherish every second. He's visiting the passport office as I write this and planning on moving in with me and staying permanently in late December! We are both very excited!
*hugs*
Samantha Maria

Sep 28, 2005

Well definitely time to update though lately I seem to be at a loss for words and am suffering from writers block--I'd pull my hair out in frustration but I don't have enough to do that with lol--But yes we (my family) are still living out of a hotel--It's been over 2 months--What can I say but kennel fever--These walls seem to be closing in...
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amberxrose:

i want to be in our cave!!!!! love you tons
amber

Sep 22, 2005

jenya:

Sep 24, 2005

To someone who I admire and adore from afar.....

Don't fade away
My blue-eyed girl
Come walk with me
I'll fill your heart with joy
And we'll dance through our isolation
Seeking solace in the wisdom we bestow
Turning thoughts to the here and everafter
Consuming fears in our fiery halos

Say what you mean
Mean what you say
I've heard that innocence
Has led...
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jenya:

hey, i changed my name too! coolio!
guess we had some psychicness going on

Sep 16, 2005

xk3zofrenik:

not bad. I am going to put my writing in the web more. Today i bought the domain name for place. By next month i should have it up and running and writing regularly.

Sep 17, 2005

Hmm finally found the motivation to write a more thorough update as depression and this suffocating hotel room have kept me down--On a good note the internet connect here is free and we actually have a Broadband connection!!--Damn dial-up lol--Anyways we are hoping to be in a home within the next month though thinking about it temporarily scrambles the neurons in my brain--Ohh wait they...
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telepathboy:

It's good to have you back sweetie.. I missed you

I hope your life is someplace much better now, yes yes?

Aug 31, 2005

x_obscure_x:

Welcome back <333 I've missed you! I hope you don't have to live in the hotel much longer and that you find a place to live. Beautiful poems. I love you lots and hope to talk to you more soon.

Sep 4, 2005

I apologize as this will be a drive by update lol ----Just wanted to say hi and relate how much I love and miss you all--I promise a better update when I can and when my mood permits it--I'm going thru some shit I thought I would never have to revisit again--But *HUGS*--I

Lexi

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yuriel:

dear lexi you are super awesome and i miss you

-hugs tight-
i hope you are doing swell as can be and get your rest and such.

Aug 24, 2005

satyrius:

Wow big Hugs.

Stay strong and Stay safe.
S.

Aug 25, 2005

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