sorrow

OK SORRY I HAVENT WRITTEN IN A FEW BUT IVE BEEN SICK AND BUSY AND SAD!! YES JUSTIN AND I BROKE UP!!! SO SUPER SAD AND BUMMED OUT!!! I MISS HIMSO VERY VERY MUCH!! I FEELEMPTY AND MISGUIDED! GRRRR WHY??? WELL I KNO WHY, IT WAS ACTUALLY A PRETTY MUTUAL BREAKUP. IM 19 HES 25. THIS IS MY TIME IN LIFE TO BE A GIRL, HAVE FUN, DISCOVER MYSELF, GO ON ROAD TRIPS WITH THE GIRLS, GET MODELING GIGS, TRAVEL, AND NOT HAVE TO CHECK IN WITH SOMONE ABOUT IT. I KNO HE LOVES ME CUZ HE LET ME GO TO LIVE MY LIFE! AND THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. WITH TIME WE WILL BE FRIENDS AGAIN AND IF WE STILL HAVE THE SAME FEELING WHEN IVE GOT MY JITTERS TO EXPLORE LIFE OUT, THEN WE WILL GET BACK TOGETHER AND IT WAS MEANT TO BE! BUT ID RATHER HAVE HIM ASA FRIEND THEN NOTHING AT ALL. HE IS AN AMAZING LOVING PERSON WHO HAS TAUGHT ME SO MUCH!!

SO I WENT TO THE DOCTOR TODAY AND I HAVE BRONCHITIS! EWW! THERES TONS OF PHLEM INMY CHEST AND I HAVE A BAD COUGH, AND IT HAS ACTIVATED MY ASTHMA AGAIN SOIM BACK ON THE INHALER. O WELL COULD BE WORSE.

SO NOW IM WORKING ON MAKINGMY OWN LIFE AND TRULY DISCOVERING AND FALLING DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH MYSELF, FOR WHO I TRULY AM! I MET UP WITH MY CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND TODAY AND WE HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE OUT TOGETHER!!! IM SO HAPPY! I LOVE HER SO!! WE COULD NOT TALK FOR 15 YEARS AND MEET UP FOR COFFEE LIKE WE JUST HUNG OUT THE DAY BEFORE!! IVE DECIDED TO ATTEND MY LOCAL COMMUNITY COLLEGE AND JUST GET THE BASICS AND TAKE A VARIETY OF CLASSESIN DIFFERENT FIELDS TO HELP ME DISCOVER WHAT I ULTIMATELY WANT TO DO!

O MY KAMIKAZE GIRLS WAS SUCH AN AWESOME MOVIE!!! IF YOU LIKE ANIME OR JAPANESE CULTURE AT ALL, PLEASE SEE IT!!!KAMIKAZE GIRLS
IM ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH CLOTHES!! THATS WHAT ID WEAR EVERY DAY IF I HAD THE MONEY! IVE DECIDED TO START MY COLLECTION AND BUY AN IT EM HERE AND THERE. I NEED A NEW WARDROBE ANYWAY, IVE JUST GROWN OUT OFMINE, JUST DOESNT FIT ME AS MUCH ANYMORE, U KNO?

O AND YES DESIREEAND I WILL BE PERFORMING WITH THE NEKRONOTZ AGAIN THE 29TH OF THIS MONTH, A SUNDAY. AT THE TONIC LOUNGE!! SHO STARTS AT 9:30, SO COME AND SEE US SHAKE OUR STUFF!! THE BAND ROX TOO!!

HHHMMMM WHAT ELSE?? O YA I KNO YUR ALL PROBABLY WAITIN FOR PICS BUT I HAVE ALOT GOIN ON RIGHT NOW, MY MOMS WEDDING IS THE 29TH AS WELL AND IM IN CHARGE OF HAIR AND MAKEUP AND DRESSES FOR HER AND THE BRIDESMAIDS SO IVE GOT MY WORK CUT OUT FOR ME!! BUT I WILLPOST PICS OF

DESIREE AND I, WE ARE HANGING OUT TOMORROW GETTIN OUR OUTFITS READY FOR THE SHO!! AND I WILL POST HALLOWEEN PICS AND WEDDING PICS!! WOW THIS MEDICINE MAKES ME HYPER!!! O YEAH AND THE MOVIE KING OF HEARTS IS PRETTY FUNNY, ITS AND OLDIE, ABUT FUNNY!! WELL IM GONNA GO FOR NOW! HAVE A SPLENDID EVENING!