sonoda

*sigh*

Well we finally got a verdict. It's a matter of weeks if left unchecked, and surgery is too risky to be worth it. So we're going to have as many of the family close to her at all times until the end, which will be suffocation, since the tumor is inside the spinal column, next to the nerve that controls the diaphragm. We can just hope it will be in her sleep.

This is the first time the whole family has been under the same roof in years.

I walk around with a vauge sense of disquiet all the time, as though there's something else very important that I should be doing but have forgotten all about. It's like a bead of mercury, the moment it seems i have my finger on it, it slides even farther away.

I'm behind in my reading, I haven't been taking any pictures lately, and i'm not getting anywhere in my exercise regimen.

gah