soniclu667

*sigh*

im fucked. i have a speech to give tomorrow, which i havent started and a HUGE spanish test which was changed to an earlier date without my knowing cause i was out with strep all week. on top of that, my professor expects me to take it, regardless of my good reason for being sick. bah! enough of school bitching, lets get to the good stuff...

last night:
really damn fun. death by stereo, um sucked. i was surprised. i dont know them beyond 2 or 3 songs but i had higher expectations. it was sorta funny to end up at a total metal show and make fun of the SUPER DAMN hardcore kids doing the lawn mower and shit like that. but i ended up just kickin it on 2nd level triple rock with the dudes. one of them, im in love with. in a totally innocent way. he's like 30 and acts like my older brother. he's SO DAMN NICE! he just makes me plain old happy. so i half napped, half chatted on the couch upstairs with those guys for a few hours. it was nice, but smokey as hell.

the deal with "this one guy"

so i get to the show somewhat later than my best dude friend, who's friends with "this one guy." i talk to crush boy and get some water from him and talk to my dude friend who tells me they had been "discussing" me prior to my arrival. yay, i thought. so the guy i have a crush on asks my friend if i have been hitting on him. WHAT? all I ever did to hit on him was say "oooh baby, ooh baby, yeah" ( see past journal entries for clarification as to why i actually used that as a pick-up line) and my friend tells him sorta yes and no that i have been hitting on him. needless to say, the explanation that i got was confusing so it must have been worse for crush boy. anyways, crush boy tells my friend that YES he think im hot but also that he will, in the future, chose to IGNORE me if i hit on him. WHAT THE HELL? why? because he knows my ex, and even though we are better friends than he and my ex, it's just too weird for him to deal with. ask me if im sad. yes. ask me if this makes me want him even more. YES! all night he was only cordial to me and all i wanted to do was run, jump on him, and pin him to the floor and have my way with him. but that was if he was standing. most the night he was sitting and all i could think of was straddling him, flinging off my shirt, tearing his clothes off, and doing him in a rolling office chair. it was a ROUGH night trying to get through my horniness.
why, oh why, does this cause a problem for him? dont most boys LOVE girls that want this type of thing? just sex crush boy, im willing to just have sex with you...
if only he would consider it...
*melissa*