song

so does anyone out there in sg land like chunky girls ? I know the beauties in sg land are thin and hot as shit - but i'm about to shoot my trial set for sg, and am totally shitting myself for lack of a better expression (sorry to be so base). I'm a super chunky monkey and have had no bodily self esteem my whole life. BUT that must change. It's wrong and ugly - if i can find so much beauty in strange places i can find it within. BUT those old selfdepreciating habits die hard. Really hard. so i'm teetering between taking the plunge and staying on the edge of the pool. I also can't find a photographer. I need someone to make me look hella good......did i just say hella ? hm. PLUS, im poor. So i can't afford the kick ass people on this site. I want missy(boo hoo boo hooo)..... oh i don't know what to do ! weight watchers ?