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My grandfather died today. blood has never bothered me - only guts. I'm taking my pictures off here soon I look like a troll . . .I did have lunch under a bridge today with natty. I was recently reminded of an old hate. It's strange how it can creep out of nowehere and poison you. i got naked with danielle today and we sang Carman in the swimming pool - Nathan smacked the inside of my thigh - and broke a stick on my ass - i have a welt. I have three. When I turned around and saw the broken part in his hand I cried for my grandfather. I lay in bed with my mother in silence for an hour. My father and i argued then kissed. . . . i'm blessed. I no longer care if he loves me or not - and I'm not talking about a specific he just he in general. . . . how happy i am grandpa - and how deeply i miss you - you were the type of man the world lacks - and we are worse off without you - now to mourn for the ages . . . . .