a girl that i graduated high school with passed away yesterday.
she was battling cancer for over a year. at the end of the summer, i had heard that she had taken a turn for the better. i guess that's how it goes.
i was never really friends with her, but i'd say hello and make pleasant small talk with her if i we ever saw eachother. she was a really sweet girl, and i don't think i'd be able to find anyone who'd have anything but nice things to say about her. i hope she's at peace now, i and hope her family is able to cope with the tragedy of losing their child at such a young age.
i'm kind of in a depressed mood right now. i've been sitting in my room, smoking cigarettes and listening to really angst-y music, like old sonic youth records.
i don't really know what to say about all this. i've become fairly familiar with death throughout my life. my father passed away when i was 14, and one of my closest friends died literally in my arms when i was 20. this whole situation is rehashing a lot of those old memories.
i have nothing. i almost feel guilty to partake in any activities that would reap pleasure. i know i shouldn't, and i know that i should be reflecting on what what a beautiful soul this girl truly had, and how she's left lasting image of being a kind, genuine person (which is not an easy task in the town i grew up in...)
hopefully i'll be able to shrug off these dark thoughts when i go out with my friends tonight. i haven't even mentioned it to any of them. i feel kind of secretive about it, in a rude way.
that's all for now.
she was battling cancer for over a year. at the end of the summer, i had heard that she had taken a turn for the better. i guess that's how it goes.
i was never really friends with her, but i'd say hello and make pleasant small talk with her if i we ever saw eachother. she was a really sweet girl, and i don't think i'd be able to find anyone who'd have anything but nice things to say about her. i hope she's at peace now, i and hope her family is able to cope with the tragedy of losing their child at such a young age.
i'm kind of in a depressed mood right now. i've been sitting in my room, smoking cigarettes and listening to really angst-y music, like old sonic youth records.
i don't really know what to say about all this. i've become fairly familiar with death throughout my life. my father passed away when i was 14, and one of my closest friends died literally in my arms when i was 20. this whole situation is rehashing a lot of those old memories.
i have nothing. i almost feel guilty to partake in any activities that would reap pleasure. i know i shouldn't, and i know that i should be reflecting on what what a beautiful soul this girl truly had, and how she's left lasting image of being a kind, genuine person (which is not an easy task in the town i grew up in...)
hopefully i'll be able to shrug off these dark thoughts when i go out with my friends tonight. i haven't even mentioned it to any of them. i feel kind of secretive about it, in a rude way.
that's all for now.
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mallory:
i forgot that i had another picture of the tape that i wanted to put up.. soo.. i just did.. i made the pocket out of an old russian map from a textbook
g00000ne:
I am sorry to hear about your loss. I myself have no family what so ever but my mom. I lost everyone I ever had close to me from something or another. I sympathize. Try and go out tonite...it will be good for you even if it might sound like a bad idea now. I know I will be going through depression when I get up there in another week....I may need some similar words of enouragement myself. You got a new friend coming to town.....