Sometimes I think that today would be a good day to go. To just float up out of the world without notice, not sad or happy, not depressed or uplifted. Just out of the thick of consequence.
But...Today is a better day to stay. To plant my feat into something, someone, or somewhere. To crystalize myself in arching patterns of love. To fall flat on my face into someone's daydream and make it real for them. To paint beauty on flat gray walls, to demand the truth from myself and the world around me. To be a demon for the future, a saint for the past, a person for now. To be fantastic. To apologize. To explain. To wreck everthing in bold thrusts of trust, trust that a pheonix thrives inside me. To wreck the bottom of every barrell.
There is no good day to dissapear. Just when you think every link is severed, the cords tighten. Life is a giant Chinese Handcuff. There is no unsafe place. Let go.
But...Today is a better day to stay. To plant my feat into something, someone, or somewhere. To crystalize myself in arching patterns of love. To fall flat on my face into someone's daydream and make it real for them. To paint beauty on flat gray walls, to demand the truth from myself and the world around me. To be a demon for the future, a saint for the past, a person for now. To be fantastic. To apologize. To explain. To wreck everthing in bold thrusts of trust, trust that a pheonix thrives inside me. To wreck the bottom of every barrell.
There is no good day to dissapear. Just when you think every link is severed, the cords tighten. Life is a giant Chinese Handcuff. There is no unsafe place. Let go.