something_vague

so we were laying in bed last night and out of nowhere he tells me he's not ready for a relationship.

(the story of my fucking life!)

i mean, i knew he had problems with intimacy because he's so selfish when it comes down to it, but GOD! to say he doesn't want a relationship when i didn't even ask for one.... that's just fucked. way to ruin the way things were (perfectly fine, by the way).

so i told him i'd made a big mistake and we should forget this ever happened.

he asked, 'so, not see each other again?'

i didn't reply.

and just like that, he was gone.


(i'm just glad he never got the chance to violate me. had i slept with him, i would be a very bitter girl right now)

EDIT: Jake just left. Love that guy... we're world's apart, but he's sweet. makes me feel like i'm not so shit, after all. I haven't slept with him, either... Gee, the list just keeps on growing. (Maybe I'll go celibate for another three months?) Do jake's kisses on the cheek count?