hehe.. i'm happy to have a buncha new friends now. this day was both shitty and not. on one hand my twin sent me a bomb-ass care package with a tocuh screen alarm clock radio and a gift cert. to trader FUCKING joe's but then... I failed my math test with flying colors, haha and my little rendezvous w/ that guy did not work out so much. we went to the jazz concert and the music was AMAZING. i felt like i should have been paying... the saxophonist was so hot in his white newsboy cap and just fucking playing the hell out of his intrument... i just love watching people get into their music...
my conversation or lack thereof w/ him however was not (amazing that is) and he ended up leaving early w/ his friends to study bio and eat. he gave me this cute apologetic shrug wave business when he left. what the fuck is that. i guess i cant complain, ive only known him 10 days but i think he's fucking amazing. i just want to say, "uh, i've got this problem. you're cute and we're not dating, can you fix that please." he's seriously made for me... why am i getting so googly-eyes over some boy who is get this. 2 years my junior. a fucking freshman. a newbie. stealing the cradle. egad. if only he weren't so hot and brilliant and funny.
i just wish i could have something concrete- either he hates me and wants me to leave him alone or he adores me- none of this neutral limbo land whatnotness. he said he thinks i'm cool but he's not looking for a relationship- he said this one day 1 that I met him. how adamant is he about this? maybe he's not looking for a relationship but maybe if one fell in his lap- more precisely if I fell into his lap. he ALWAYS hangs out w/ these two people a guy and a girl. i have this dumb tension that maybe he likes her or she likes him. i sound like a fucking schoolgirl, it disgusts me. i wish i just knew if he thought i was attractive or whatnot- maybe he's not into asian chicks? maybe he wants a tall buxom blond... aka antithesis of me!
to the guys out there... what does a guy mean when he says he doesnt want a relationship on the first day he really talks to you? and if he's starting to like you, is it possible he'd be nonchalant? how affronted would you be if a somewhat cute girl approached you and told you that she thought you were amazing and really wanted to spend more time w/ you... despite your previous not looking for a relationship statements, could you consider her? give her a chance? what would it depend on? this guy isnt exactly chasing me down to hang out, yet he'll respond to my emails and whatnot- I'm assuming a person could only be so polite and to a point they'd make it clear if they wanted nothing to do w/ you. we have so much in common, he embodies all that i value in a human being. fuck. why does this world have to be so difficult- why can't everyone be straight up and say what they feel and not have other people get flipped out about it. what would a guy want to hear?
fuck this shit. anyone know some cute girls? at least i'd know what they're thinking. sorry for this long rambling piece of shit post. in good news, in 2005, Family Guy will get back on air with THIRTY-FIVE NEW episodes.
I'm lonely. Everyone is gone. I have an essay to write but I'm lonely
my conversation or lack thereof w/ him however was not (amazing that is) and he ended up leaving early w/ his friends to study bio and eat. he gave me this cute apologetic shrug wave business when he left. what the fuck is that. i guess i cant complain, ive only known him 10 days but i think he's fucking amazing. i just want to say, "uh, i've got this problem. you're cute and we're not dating, can you fix that please." he's seriously made for me... why am i getting so googly-eyes over some boy who is get this. 2 years my junior. a fucking freshman. a newbie. stealing the cradle. egad. if only he weren't so hot and brilliant and funny.
i just wish i could have something concrete- either he hates me and wants me to leave him alone or he adores me- none of this neutral limbo land whatnotness. he said he thinks i'm cool but he's not looking for a relationship- he said this one day 1 that I met him. how adamant is he about this? maybe he's not looking for a relationship but maybe if one fell in his lap- more precisely if I fell into his lap. he ALWAYS hangs out w/ these two people a guy and a girl. i have this dumb tension that maybe he likes her or she likes him. i sound like a fucking schoolgirl, it disgusts me. i wish i just knew if he thought i was attractive or whatnot- maybe he's not into asian chicks? maybe he wants a tall buxom blond... aka antithesis of me!
to the guys out there... what does a guy mean when he says he doesnt want a relationship on the first day he really talks to you? and if he's starting to like you, is it possible he'd be nonchalant? how affronted would you be if a somewhat cute girl approached you and told you that she thought you were amazing and really wanted to spend more time w/ you... despite your previous not looking for a relationship statements, could you consider her? give her a chance? what would it depend on? this guy isnt exactly chasing me down to hang out, yet he'll respond to my emails and whatnot- I'm assuming a person could only be so polite and to a point they'd make it clear if they wanted nothing to do w/ you. we have so much in common, he embodies all that i value in a human being. fuck. why does this world have to be so difficult- why can't everyone be straight up and say what they feel and not have other people get flipped out about it. what would a guy want to hear?
fuck this shit. anyone know some cute girls? at least i'd know what they're thinking. sorry for this long rambling piece of shit post. in good news, in 2005, Family Guy will get back on air with THIRTY-FIVE NEW episodes.
I'm lonely. Everyone is gone. I have an essay to write but I'm lonely
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I always think the best policy is to be honest about how you feel. It's tough because you make yourself vulnerable, but what else can you do? It never turns out well when you play games. Just be sincere.
Hope it helps.