I'm back on medication - Efexor XR again. I took it a few years ago and it worked well for a while but seemed to wear off after 4 or 5 months. But at the time I was going through some bad relationship stress and I think it was that that sent me off the rails again. So hopefully this time, without any major stress, it might work out better. Its only been 4 days so I haven't noticed much of an effect yet. Give it a few more weeks and I might be back to my normal self.
I've been drinking like a fish these last few weeks. It's a strange paradox that alcohol has a depressant effect over the long term and yet for the short term has a powerful anti-depressant effect - at least for me it does - and that short term relief usually overrides any rational considerations. Alcohol is definitely my poison, and I think its in my genes. Many of my relatives on my mum's side have had problems with alcohol. Sometimes I want to fight against it, and other times I want to just accept it, embrace it even, and just enjoy it despite any longer term consequences. Time for some splishy splashy...
I've been drinking like a fish these last few weeks. It's a strange paradox that alcohol has a depressant effect over the long term and yet for the short term has a powerful anti-depressant effect - at least for me it does - and that short term relief usually overrides any rational considerations. Alcohol is definitely my poison, and I think its in my genes. Many of my relatives on my mum's side have had problems with alcohol. Sometimes I want to fight against it, and other times I want to just accept it, embrace it even, and just enjoy it despite any longer term consequences. Time for some splishy splashy...
nomorecrap:
Hiya Sweetness, nice pooches! You look quite adorable yourself :-) So, grog hey? Nasty nasty stuff. Definitley effects different people in different ways. I lived the soul destroying life of someone addicted to alcohol for 15years believe it or not. Most people don't, they look at me and can't comprehend where I've been or how dangerous it is. I went through the paranoia, alcohol induced psychosis, anxiety, depression the whole dirty bit. I'll leave it there because I hate thinking about it now, makes me feel ill and yuck, in the head and physically. But everyone is different as I said and if it is not effecfting you in such a negative way you will not stop using it as a coping strategy, it sounds like you're only seeing and feeling the positives of it at this stage? My concern for you would be when and if it does start to imapct negatively on your life and becomes your whole life then you won't be able to just stop. If you are depressed now it will be 100 times worse if you become chemically addicted to alcohol. Do your research dude. You may have already. But in case you haven't just look into how it changes pathways in your brain and how the decision to simply stop is taken out of your hands. If you ever want help or suggestions on this feel free. If I've just told you a heap of crap you didn't need to hear I apologise he he. Anyway, hope you're having a lovely day dude! xo