Brief history of my life so far - Part 3
New graduate program at Wollongong Hospital ended April 2000. Had enough of IV antibiotics and wiping bums and so again lapsed into voluntary unemployment. Girlfriend fell pregnant. Went with her to the clinic in Sydney. Didn't think it affected me much until later that night when we cried together for hours. She somehow knew the baby would have been a girl - she would have named her Emma.
In August applied for new graduate program in psychiatric nursing and was accepted. First placement was on the Mobile Treatment Team - a 24hr community crisis team. Rather like a baptism of fire as an introduction to psych nursing but several colleges proved excellent mentors and I learned fast. Supposed to only stay there for 1 month before going into the wards but due to staff shortage was kept for 6 months. Realised I was being given an experience rarely afforded to new graduate nurses.
At end of January 2001, girlfriend had finished degree at Wollongong Uni and was going back to France. Promised her I would come to Europe later in the year but some part of me knew we might never see each other again. The sense of loss at her leaving was something I had never felt before. I had two days off work and I couldn't stop crying.
Finally left MTT and had 4 month stint in Shellharbour psych units before a job came up back at the MTT. I applied and thanks to the 6 months experience I already had, I got the job. Happily said goodbye to the wards and knew community nursing was where my interest lay.
Continued telephone relationship with girlfriend but by June we both realised it was not doing either of us any good. Decided to break it off and move on. By this time had started to form a good friendship with a mate's girlfriend who both lived next door to us. Spent many nights playing cards with her and drinking beer as her boyfriend was preoccupied with computer games. In the early hours of the morning after a drunken party, we kissed and thus began a secret liaison consisting of many walks to the park and long kisses on the grass. She finally left her boyfriend in October and our relationship became public, causing a massive upheaval within our social group. I had to leave the house I shared with friends and moved back to my mums. I found myself completely ostracised from my group of friends who I had known for more than 10 years. I had realised this would be a consequence of our relationship and I made the choice quite consciously - I wanted her and nothing else mattered.
(to be continued)
New graduate program at Wollongong Hospital ended April 2000. Had enough of IV antibiotics and wiping bums and so again lapsed into voluntary unemployment. Girlfriend fell pregnant. Went with her to the clinic in Sydney. Didn't think it affected me much until later that night when we cried together for hours. She somehow knew the baby would have been a girl - she would have named her Emma.
In August applied for new graduate program in psychiatric nursing and was accepted. First placement was on the Mobile Treatment Team - a 24hr community crisis team. Rather like a baptism of fire as an introduction to psych nursing but several colleges proved excellent mentors and I learned fast. Supposed to only stay there for 1 month before going into the wards but due to staff shortage was kept for 6 months. Realised I was being given an experience rarely afforded to new graduate nurses.
At end of January 2001, girlfriend had finished degree at Wollongong Uni and was going back to France. Promised her I would come to Europe later in the year but some part of me knew we might never see each other again. The sense of loss at her leaving was something I had never felt before. I had two days off work and I couldn't stop crying.
Finally left MTT and had 4 month stint in Shellharbour psych units before a job came up back at the MTT. I applied and thanks to the 6 months experience I already had, I got the job. Happily said goodbye to the wards and knew community nursing was where my interest lay.
Continued telephone relationship with girlfriend but by June we both realised it was not doing either of us any good. Decided to break it off and move on. By this time had started to form a good friendship with a mate's girlfriend who both lived next door to us. Spent many nights playing cards with her and drinking beer as her boyfriend was preoccupied with computer games. In the early hours of the morning after a drunken party, we kissed and thus began a secret liaison consisting of many walks to the park and long kisses on the grass. She finally left her boyfriend in October and our relationship became public, causing a massive upheaval within our social group. I had to leave the house I shared with friends and moved back to my mums. I found myself completely ostracised from my group of friends who I had known for more than 10 years. I had realised this would be a consequence of our relationship and I made the choice quite consciously - I wanted her and nothing else mattered.
(to be continued)
wow that's some journal entry, sounds like your shit is complex right now
good luck with the new girl hope it was worth it brain damage