But can't understand you
I never made fun of sam talking about semen eating since he does that or ever raped sam I made that up because you're into that....pain neglect and torture, bdsm and the like.
I feel terrorized by you and I bled today menstrually and for the first time since la two years ago nearly puked all my shit because you wouldn't stop saying sam griesedieck in jest afterwards. I don't want to hear his name. That's not nice to try to force his cook in my mouth like its solving the multiple personality problem you made up in the first place to make an excuse to do that with no one watching.
Then you call that nice of you to let me look at you while you curse me out for it like I made the decision for you to pose pornographically.
I don't need it and can't do it.
You want to treat me that way you better be giving me real sex as in be my real boyfriend you expect me to deal with your shit and have nowhere to talk about it, not even under my breath to myself in a film study library.
I love you so much
But all I get is made fun of for being nice so I tried otherwise and hate myself now. Please don't make me do that.