soeffinhappy

Just got back from my friend's girlfriend's wake. It was pretty bad. Wakes and funerals bother me a lot and this one bothered me more than most cause my ex-girlfriend was there with the guy she's going out with now, the guy who used to be my best friend. It was emotional hell seeing them together and it made me wanna wig out and run screaming from the funeral home. Of course I didn't, but I hurt my hand squeezing it. What made me feel even worse was the fact that I was getting so upset about something so petty as seeing my ex while at a wake. The poor mother was crying and moaning the whole time cause her daughter was dead and here I am with nothing on my mind but how bad I felt. It made me feel like such a rotten person.
Anyways, the night wasn't all bad, when I got home I called a friend and she made me feel better (she always does). Now Super Troopers (the funniest movie ever) is on and I'm cracking up. Seeing them at the wake was tough but I'm glad I went to support my friend. Any advice on how I can get to sleep tonight? I don't know if I'll be able to shake the image of them together out of my head.