soeffinhappy

What is it about coffee that makes conversation come so freely? Does the caffeine have some kind of loosening effect on the conversation centers of the brain? Coffee, much more than alchohol, makes me want to talk endlessly to people.
This week I went to see Coffee and Cigarettes and then went for some of the same afterwards. I spent three hours in the South Street Diner(a little overpriced if you ask me) drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes with two friends of mine. It was good. Fun. It was one of those times when the conversation flows crookedly among more topics than you can count. We effortlessly changed the topic from Michael Moore's new movie to fake orgasms to how to start a successful business, basically just letting the contents of our brains drip out onto the table to be examined by everyone. I drove one friend home, then sat outside the other friends house and talked some more about her plans for finding work and for the career she'd like to start. I like this friend. She's one of those rare people who are beautiful in every way. She worries about how her life will turn out and it makes me smile; she's too smart and driven to not succeed.
I worry about being the lame nice guy who pretends to be a girls friend but is really just trying to get close to her. I don't think I'm doing it but I wonder how I would react if she were to get too close. She's one of the most attractive people I've ever met but I know that we wouldn't work out if we got together. Me and her are like LoMein and ice cream. Lomein and ice cream are both awesome but when you mix em up, get em all intimate-like, it's a vomit inducing concoction. But see, something she said makes me wonder. She said that one of her friends has the hots for her and it froke her out because she didn't like to think that if she got too close she might find herself in an uncomfortable situation with that friend. Now I'm wondering. I think to myself "Self, don't worry. You're safe man. She's been pushed into the outer reaches of the friend zone. That place reserved for family members and the closest of friends. Sure she's hot and smart and awesome, but don't worry. This section of the friend zone is escape proof." But then I think something else. I think about when we were sitting in my car outside my house talking. I think about the awesome night we had, talking and laughing. I think about what would happen if she decided to lean in a little more than she did. I wonder about what would happen if she started to lay her hand on my knee when she made her points. I wonder about what would happen if she were so close that I could feel the heat coming off her and smell her hair. I wonder whether or not I'd be able to push her back across the line if she decided to cross it. Like I've said before, she is easily one of the most attractive women I've ever met.
Easy answer to all these burning, soul-searching questions...

I NEED TO GET LAID!!!