socogentleman

So I'm laying in bed still sick after 4 solid days and all i can think about is how betrayed I feel thanks to what I thought was my bestfriend. Come to find out I was just a non-romantic stand in for her boyfriend/fiance until he got back to the states. Her excuse for not telling me everything fro the get go? She didn't want to make it hard on me. Yeah, that was a good idea. Let's wait 'till I get all involved and attatched in a psuedo friendship and then only tell me when I ask because you've been blowing me off for the past 2 months while I gave you and the boyfriend space. If it weren't for the fact taht I cared so much about her to begin with I don't think I'd be considering keeping her as a friend. Or it could be that her bestfriend from gradeschool is coming home from college today and I kinda have a thing for her and I figure it might hurt my chances for hanging out with said person if I piss off my ex-best.... even though I've already told her about what the ex-best did to me since we talk about everything. As if being sick and overworked wasn't tiring enough I've had to go through emotional hell with this. Oh well, I suppose the only thing I can do now is take it ohne step at a time... or I could put it out of my mind for a bit take a shower and take a new main pic since i've cut and died my hair. i look a lot different now.

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Here's my new look. I tried to hide the fact that my neck is swollen pretty bad because I'm sick.