socialcoma

dear me. i keep checking my cellphone, did he leave a message? is my phone broken? there is a total disbelief in the capabilities of a phone when somone calling you is involved.

i need a life. i really need another life from being "in love"... actually it's just in love with out the qutations, i just try to give myself for credit cause i feel like a fucking retard missing osmeone who i saw YESTERDAY, who i should be mad cause all he did was make me cry anyway. i need to forget about all of this -cuts hand off-, there ! that will distract me.... and i'll just keep on chopping off my extremities till i can't think anymore, or he calls me.... THEN i'll call a doctor and tell him to sew them back on.

i wish life was that easy.

gah.