snowtiger

Well i got signed off today for a week due to " Depressive illness" as the doctor called it....Its no big deal to me, its happened so many times in the past that i'm kinda used to it.

I think i'll just put my feet up for a bit and watch films and the x-files. But i will also work out like a mofo and...
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Ok been away for like 2 months...reason...well no reason...as for me have started a new job with an international corporation...yeah corporate whore!

At the mo am depressed, had a day off work coz of it, but in a strange way i'm kinda happy coz i'm depressed...The reason is that i now know why i've "officaly" had depression/anxiety/agoraphobia for 8 years!!...but looking back i had fucking...
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I think of you like I often do
When I hear the rain on my windowpane
Gently tapping at the glass
Like your gently touching fingers
Just looking for the smile I give to you

Chorus:
You can feel what no one feels
You can hear what no one hears
Just looking for the smile I give to you
You can feel what no one...
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Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Can't you understand
Oh my little girl

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does...
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Assimilate

oil remove shred and tear radiation vapor
it's the fear so unclear man in motion going nowhere
in our homes stuck in the face spread the word to the populace
yellow journal yellow journal set the pace feel the rage
manifestations of a sort so insidious off the point
simple solution never confusion sport a gun kill a cop
crazy world of weary thought...
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Well i saw Tool on Wednesday...they totally rocked my world, amazing musicians all of 'em.

Bit nervous about quitting meds, i've been getting chest pains...could be a sign of anxiety, but fuck it i will give it my best shot

On a brighter note i'm keeping pretty cool, my tats are almost healed now, well its been 2&1/2 weeks, amd my PA is doing fine...
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The Grudge]
Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.

Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Justify denials and grip it to the lonesome end.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison...
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Despite not having my hospital appointment until next i'm dreading it. The plan is to reduce some meds with the view to come off a certain drug completely....They've tried before and i lasted a week on a reduced dose before i went back with tears in my eyes begging to go back to a higher dose......Whats different this time is that i'm noti n uni,...
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good god its bloody awful!

Yes thats what i thought when i went out just now. I went to the main pub in my town centre....shite...girls all wearing the same outfits....guys with the same hair style....shite,shite,shite. i lasted 15 minutes before i headed home.
Have these people never heard of culture or of an existance beyowd their own small minded ways.....

Anyways am pretty good...
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cool peeps

not been up to anything exciting lately. mind you had a fun shopping trip into camden on friday. got myself a nice tight as fuck, and sexy as fuck lucky thirteen t-shirt from drag strip, and the t-shirt is virgin white as well.
Also got another pair of those Vans deck shoes thingys. I've already got the black/white checked ones...these ones have skulls...
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yo my sweet fly honey bitches. I've been representing it in da hood.
Remember its all dollar dollar bill y'all

Westside

Am getting my Tats in 90 mins, can't wait!