snowballinhell

my head hurts, it always hurts when
i'm crowded like a brainless little piggy in an abetoire
but can you really blame them for thinking
armageddon's swiftly making plans to crash the party at midnight?
and come the daylight, we'll make a monkey out of satan
dusty rubble under double purple suns
and while the zealots start collecting two of every animal

Seems like everyone I know is suffering with one thing or another at the moment. Guess it must be this time of year, but I hate to see my friends suffering and being so very sad I just care too much and want to see everyone happy, but the way of the world and life itself right now, sucks. And sucks big time.

I have to find another 255 a month to pay my creditors with, that is the agreement that the bank came up with today otherwise I get referred to the credit agencies and basically get blacklisted because of my debt I KNOW it's my own stupid fucking fault for being so damn naive about certain things, but other than robbing a fucking bank what else can I do when there isn't any work out there for me to apply for? Get this, they even suggested I ask friends or family to help out in the short term Yeah right, as if my retired parents have any spare cash to bail their daughter out of 60k debts, when they live in a council house and survive on meagre pensions, and as if I have any friends who have shit loads of money to help out until I get a job when the kids are old enough to go to school in September. I would have fucking laughed down the phone at him if it wasn't for the fact that I was so close to crying.

So if you do actually know of someone who is financially loaded to the gills with cash and can spare it to help this helpless creature, please send them my way and pronto, I have until the 27th to make the first payment (on top of the other 380 I need to find in 6 days!), I'll become a sex slave if I have to Well, no, not quite, but I'm damn fast running out of viable options.

ok, enough boring you to tears with my sad life again, let's find something funny to think about.......please?

Thanks for all your book suggestions from my last journal, you've all come up with some interesting ideas, so I shall be exploring some of them as soon as I either get a library card, or steal some cash and purchase them

Big goes out to all my friends on here having a hard time one way or another, I send lots of your way, and you can always count on me if you need me

Hello to my new friends saintadatha and thelastbeliever, welcome to the swelling ranks of my friends list. Goodbye to alive2day who's gone grey, I hope he comes back soon and that it's only cash that's stopping him from renewing, and not anything else as he's out in Iraq

I saw a gorgeous red hair colour on the TV today and I'm so not sure whether I should go for all red next time I can afford to have my hair done It was not as bright as Jane Goldman's but oh so close. I just don't know what I'd look with ALL red hair you know? I'm bored with my hair again, I hate it when it's like this, do I have it cut a bit shorter or just let it grow really long again........decisions, decisions

Right, I need major cheering up, so here in no particular order apart from the first thing is what I would like:

cash and lots of it
jokes
sex
more cash
presents
and es
more cash
more sex

Selfish, ain't I

Smooches
Michelle xx